Monthly Archives: December 2015

Week 36: A flashback

People talk about how the birthday of a child born violently can be triggering and traumatic – but I have not had this happen with my toddler’s birthdays. It seems to me that his birthday is his day, and my … Continue reading

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Week 35: No big deal

Amazing – I had the GBS test and the midwife had me do it myself. No big deal.

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Week 34: Don’t touch me

I’ve been introspective over the last few days, ever since I realized that much as I trust my midwife, I’m not ready to let her touch my vagina, and may never be. And even I have had to convince myself … Continue reading

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Week 33: A trigger

Ok, now I am freaking out just a little. I was sort of psyching myself up to the GBS swab for this entire pregnancy, and also sort of ignoring it. Now I found out there is not only a vaginal … Continue reading

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Week 31: Poem for mother blessing

In the form of a pantoum and whimsically adapted from some birth plan musings:   Song of Welcome   This is my song of welcome Where once I walked alone I ask you for protection I want you to hold … Continue reading

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Week 30: More birth art/meditations

Me as a tree Me as a mountain Me as the atmosphere

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Week 29: Transformation

I want to explain more clearly why I have been considering unassisted birth. I have considered it to be my safest realistic option because I have not trusted birth attendants, and while I fantasized about finding someone trustworthy, I acknowledged … Continue reading

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